"Are you brave enough to see? Do you want to change it?"

Hung out with hilorain today. It was orgasmic fun. Seriously, I think I came three times. We got to sit in one of the suite boxes at the Coyotes game (hockey is best when the players get riled up and beat the crap out of each other) for her dad's birthday. Being typical girls when it comes to sports (that *is* one way in which I am stereotypically girly), we talked more than watched the game. I was glad to see her.

Before that I went to the Irish festival with Mom for a bit, since my sister was volunteering there. I got a tin whistle. I'm going to be annoying people for a while. I fell in love with the rune sets I saw for sale there. I need to stop having such a fetish for divination-type paraphernalia.

Japanese workbook = mrgh.

Sometimes the stupidity of people is utterly stunning.

I listen to this song too much lately.

[Edit:] Oh, yeah, I had an extremely detailed dream about an Evangelion video game / virtual reality situation setup in a family-fun place, like Fiddlesticks. It was so realistic that every time one walked through the tunnel to get in (which was entirely paneled in glass video-displays), a *loud* siren went off and gave the person 25 seconds to get into the Eva bay before he or she was... I don't know, the victim of something bad. The panel facing the section of the tunnel leading to the bay (it made a 90 degree turn) had a video display with a whitewash NERV-like wall that closed like a sphincter as the siren went off. Once in the bay, people were told that this was a "very realistic, 40-minute" simulation, and that if we did not defeat all of the enemies by that time, we would be tortured. I remember it was me and my mom, and I think somebody else, manning the Eva. You did not get into an entry plug as in the show; you stood on an iron-grille platform (like the school's lunch tables were made of), in front of which was a mammoth video display, while I controlled a long device that resembled bike handles encased in a tube of black rubber (this was the Eva's blade), while my mother did... I don't know what, but I think it was driving. I think we were supposed to be in Unit 02, as we were battling the EVA Series from End of Evangelion--except this time, the fuckers had chainsaws. I was swooping and slashing with the handles as madly as I could (they handled smooth as butter; I was expecting them to be stiff and clunky, as most VR simulation weapons are, and it did look as though it was encased in stiff rubber), and eventually I faced an Angel I did not recognize from the show, and did not fall victim to my sword, so, on a hunch, I poked the black center of its eye (it was not a pupil) with the tip of the sword, and twisted the sword round and round like a corkscrew (the metal was very flexible, and as I "reached out" to the sword, I could feel the phantom blade in my hands), and pulled out the center of the beast's eye, which was like a tapioca ball. It was in a daze after that.

I woke up after that. I wish that dream had been real, because the game and the setup were freaking *sweet*. But the being tortured part? I don't know how that would have been worked out. I haven’t seen that show in ages. I should re-watch it. I first saw it when I was 12 (seriously, I remember clearly it was in sixth grade); no wonder I am the way I am today. And thinking of that makes me realize how old I am. It seems like only yesterday.

You can beat The Devil.

Did a favorable tarot reading today--or, at least, it gave me something favorable to meditate on. Death must come into play before anything can progress; otherwise, things will remain in stagnation. The Chariot is the answer to the question about beating The Devil given a circumstance. The Lovers is the 10th position card (in the Celtic Cross)--the card of an important decision, of a fork in the road. My readings are always scarily accurate (I don't just mean you can sort-of twist it and you can see how it would work), but this time, there was an element of hope added when I drew a clarification card. But, as always, no favorable outcome is guaranteed without action, and nobody can grasp that potential without being willing to try. I would go into further detail (who is ‘crossing’ progress and the situation, my speculations, etc) but such details are not for the public domain. (If you know me in Real Life, you can piece together bits of what I've said.)

I've decided I'm going to be Nny again for Halloween this year. It's a simple, comfortable costume, and I don't feel like going all-out with makeup and several layers this year--I'm extremely busy this week. That can wait for PAF in December.

I've got to meet a Japanese partner at the library.