And sometimes it gets painfully dark--

[trenchkamen]

I did what I could. I've done what I can. I will do what I can in the future. I stand by my friends through fair and foul; I'll do anything for them. But it isn't to be taken for granted. All I ask is civility in return. That's all. Civility and respect.

I ran the full gamut of emotions this afternoon, from concerned, to enraged, to calmer, to horrified, to scared, to cold. And I think vestiges of this plethora remain somewhere in my chest, leaving me very... calm and clear-headed. I drove back and forth from Tempe to North Scottsdale three circuits. It doesn't matter. Each trip had its purpose.

And I've forgiven, but by God, it better never happen again.

People have the amazing capacity to shock you, even when you're sure you know them as well as any human can know another. I honestly never thought I would see this day. Let it die and never come to pass again.

I love both of you guys more than I can ever express. It would rip me apart to lose either of you. It always gets the darkest before dawn, and, though it may not seem like it could ever happen right now, time does heal wounds. It's an uphill climb until that point, but it will happen if you keep fighting. I promise. But it won't if you lie down and die.


SEVEN THINGS IN YOUR ROOM:
01. A trenchcoat on a hanger, waiting for the weather to cool off so Trench Kamen can rule the night again
02. A hell of a lot of books, literary and manga
03. A hell of a lot of anime-related posters etc
04. A sakura-scented candle que me gusta
05. A bunch of brass candlesticks a'la Phantom
06. Notes and papers stacked up against the walls and my desk, of various natures
07. T3h computer

TOP SEVEN THINGS YOU SAY MOST:
01. Really.
02. I see.
03. I don't see a problem with this.
04. That's what your mother said last night.
05. Not exactly...
06. Huh...
07. Well, I guess you could look at it that way.

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT:
01. Microsoft Word
02. Mozilla Firefox
03. Adobe Photoshop and Image Ready
04. Chinese food
05. DDR every now and then
06. Books
07. WinAmp

SEVEN THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
01. Take over the world
02. Improve the world
03. Fuck the world
04. Train a platypus to croak the Star-Spangled Banner
05. Become fluent in at least Japanese and some other useful language
06. Get that official title "Dr." because it's so nifty
07. Write a book, or something like that

SEVEN OTHER THINGS:
Do You:

01. Smoke? No
02. Do drugs? No
03. Read the newspaper? Depends on my mood
04. Drink? Seldom
05. Have a Job? At the moment, I'm more-or-less unemployed
06. Attend Church? No
07. Wish on stars? No

Have you ever:
1. Gone skinny dipping? No
2. Had surgery? I'm going to have my wisdom teeth pulled soon.
3. Swam in the dark? Yes
4. Been to a Bonfire? Yes
5. Ran away from home? No
6. Played strip poker? Yes, but it was super-pussy-non-hardcore
7. Pulled an all nighter? All the time

SEVEN THINGS IN LAST 24 HOURS:
have you...

1. Cried? No
2. Sang? I drove, therefore, yes.
3. Been kissed? No
4. Felt stupid? Somewhat
5. Talked to an ex? Define 'ex' No.
6. Missed someone? No
7. Had sex with someone? No

Comments

[xcerebraledemax.livejournal.com]

Me love you long time. I'm pretty dumb.

Thanks for your time today, and all the times before.

[trenchkamen.livejournal.com]

You're not dumb, and no problem. I'm just glad everything is all right.

[xcerebraledemax.livejournal.com]

Really like that B-T song, doncha?