"Don't forget 3. Oct .11"

[trenchkamen]

Except I missed that bus by four hours. I really need to catch up on Fullmetal Alchemist 2.

Can't sleep. What else is new.

Took the GREs again today, did considerably worse than last time. Like a hundred points worse in analytical, exact damn same in verbal. My brain did not want to work. I was having trouble focusing; I could not process what I was seeing even though I knew it was easy. I'm not used to this. Something is wrong.

Had the same problem trying to read today. Yes, recreational reading.

How can somebody have been top of his medical school class and not understand what eukaryotic means? Write!Fail.

It's October, my favorite month: my birthday, Halloween, and, now, National Coming Out Day, though why "coming out" needs a day is sad, but that's another issue for another day. Every day should be coming out day. Rainbow festival was today, but I didn't go after my GRE because I was too pissed off, and it was getting late in the afternoon.

I'm also insanely behind on LJ. So, uh, sorry about that.

The halfway mark for the semester is coming up, and I haven't started on any of my graduate school applications, and I still need to finish my broader impacts proposal. Ultimately I have nobody to blame but myself. And I need to start on the gigantic fucking lab report that's due next week.

Comments

[duckmole86.livejournal.com]

Please tell me you passed your GRE and are just retaking it for a better score. Otherwise, I'm avoiding the bloody things altogether because you're easily much smarter than I am. Or at least better at applying your intelligence.

But Lauren, if you're having that sort of trouble focusing/processing things, you should probably ask a doctor about it unless you're dealing with some severe burnout. I have issues like that when I'm seizing, and occasionally other times, but I know that that comes of a combination of the seizures and the meds I'm on to prevent them. You'll almost certainly feel better about things when you find out why.

*hugs*

[trenchkamen.livejournal.com]

To be honest, I did well above average both times. I just thought I could do better because the first time I made some simple mistakes. The mathematics section is rather easy, logic problems with simple algebra and geometry. The only difficult part about the verbal is some obscure vocabulary that you have to know outside of context (i.e. analogies and antonyms). So definitely do not avoid it or fear it.

I've been burned out, yes, but I'm also going off Zoloft. I think that has a lot to do with it.